What I want, you see, is a combination. I want to be able to take my UF courses with their 50-minute periods, walk around the big, sunny campus in shorts and a T-shirt, and then flash my OV at the train conductor and get a free ride home to Jacksonville for the weekend. I want to swim a 5000-yard practice with my team every night, and then still be able to go to the grocery store at 10pm after practice if I haven't had time that day. I want to be able to drive my car over the large, wide, plainly marked roads, and take a nicely designed, punctual bus through its own specially marked bus lanes when I don't feel like biking to campus. I want to celebrate Christmas and my birthday with my family, but Sinterklaas and Koninginnedag with the Dutch. I want to wear shorts and flip-flops every day, and yet still see snow once in a while. I want to have access to all the latest music and movies when they first come out, but I also want the unbelievable speed of multimedia downloading that the Dutch university students have with their DC++ hub. I want to have Moe's burritos after practice with the team, yet I want to be able to buy the occasional patatje met or broodje kroket at the train station or a stukje pizza from Bakkerij Bart's, too. I want to speak English sometimes, but I also want the thrill of speaking my second-best language twenty-four-seven in a country where almost no non-natives can speak like I do. I want to spend time with my friends here, especially Anna and Hayley and the rest of the team, but I also want to see Linde and Christine, two of my aller-beste friends, on a regular basis.
I just can't win.